PERSONAL PRAYER LIFE:
Rationalizing the Dry Spells and the Mountain Tops
I don’t know about you but my prayer life is all over the place.
What do I mean by that?
Sometimes, I am plodding onward like Eeyore from Winnie the Pooh. Sometimes, I am elated like the Road Runner, bouncing off the walls in total intimacy with The Lord.
Right now, my soul is totally “in the zone”. . . to coin a phrase.
I feel so deeply connected and when I go into prayer; all is very well with my soul. It is so peaceful, so connected, so blissful. I am totally in awe of God, deeply filled with the Holy Spirit and, this is rather tricky to put into words, for Shakespeare I am not!
I just close my eyes and there I am, my soul present with The Lord. Awesome. Words fail me.
I need to tell you that it is not like this all the time. In fact, it is rather rare that I feel so connected.
I just had to write about this in the moment, trying to capture the depth of prayer, as I feel totally immersed and joined with God. Actually, it is a knowing beyond words. I am completely one with His Presence!
My sense is that I want to stay in this place of prayer and in this state of mind
all the time, at all times, totally there. An all-knowing state.
I know in reality there are brief moments of time when one is so at peace with God. One catches glimpses of the perfection of God’s Kingdom for a while, and then, it’s back to asking, “Where are You God? Oh, there You are.”
It is, indeed, a rare mountain top experience to be so in tune.
A momentary glimpse, a true sense of God’s Holy Presence, that all is truly well.
My prayer would be for longer and more frequent times of pure intimacy with The Lord.
My prayer for you is that this experience, this knowing,
this being “in the zone” is difficult to explain, but entirely available to you.
So I just want to encourage you to keep praying, and to know that every prayer you offer is heard by God. Of this I have no doubt.
Is it the feeling I crave or actually the intimacy with God the Father in knowing His Almighty Presence? Clearly the latter.
I pray that as we all go through dry spells of prayer,
where there is aridity and loneliness for days or weeks or months, we would hear God saying, “Keep going, keep going.” The memory of literally crawling along The Valley of the Shadow of Death comes to mind. The sense of going deeper into the relationship is made manifest.
God says,”I will never leave you or forsake you.”
It seems that each one of us has to come to our own personal understanding of God, And what He is all about. I am writing about my experience with the Lord, hoping to encourage and uplift you to do the same. Ultimately, we, as individuals, make up our own mind if this is real or some cosmic joke. Well, as for me, I know my redeemer lives.
Keep praying, dear soul. Keep praying through and through the dry spells knowing that He is with you in every thought and deed. There will be glimpses of His Glory!
Dame Julian of Norwich said these words in the thirteen hundreds,
“All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well.” I would add,
Keep praying and all shall be well.
Persevere in prayer, dear souls.
Be well, do good works, and for the sake of God, love one another.
Fr. Nigel Mumford+